eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
well thanksgiving plans are cancelled which would be nice except for the fact that I have no food, don't know how to cook, and don't know anyone that well
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eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
I just really want support and reassurance? I guess??? I've spent the past few days screaming into the void and I just want to know whether I'm safe or not or if I'm alone out here
eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
ok so I may or may not have been severely traumatized by a 5ish year streak of losing friends over saying things that insulted/annoyed them even if I didn't mean it
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eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
this + seeing all those death threats aimed at people who have been misreading all those tumblr bans lately + my history of screwing up and getting kicked out of friend groups. I am very scared of doing the wrong thing and I don't know if I'm doing the wrong thing or not because if I am then I'm just going to lose everyone again
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eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
anyway I'm not ok
eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
do you ever just see a post that says that everyone on a website is racist and you take that personally and remember everything else you did and just crash directly into a brick wall
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eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
just call me out and ban me from everything already
eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
I'm probably so transphobic and racist and incredibly needy like yeah this is my fate. I slowly fade into irrelevance and get kicked off the internet like I deserve
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eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
like goodness sake the fediverse is run by people with moral OCD for people with moral OCD. you always have to be on your toes because there is a very real possibility that a moderator could see you slip up and now you're blocked from an entire community of a couple hundred people over something that you didn't even know was wrong. we can't always be perfect and we need to double down on making it nicer for everyone instead of just the people who are perfect little angels
eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
I think this platform would be a lot nicer to be on if people cared less about ideological purity and cared more about making it work for everyone
eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
yknow I'm surprised that in that four hour long Defunctland documentary Kevin didn't mention Push, the remote controlled talking trash can that also flirted with guests
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eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
@bug I swear most of my life is just procrastinating on chores and routines while doing nothing but scrolling at this point
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eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
@bug I swear most of my life is just procrastinating on chores and routines while doing nothing but scrolling at this point
eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
I really gotta start pre-emptively getting ready for bed because I have been consistently only getting 6 hours of sleep for months
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Kiran 🏳️⚧️ @kirancodes@transfem.social
Installing Linux software is about to get a lot more... GAY.
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vozer 
@vozercozer@vozer.cafe@wetdry.world
this char.ai shit is for the fuckin birds man
eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
vent
socializing isn't fun anymore there's too many things that could or have gone terribly wrong. talking to people isn't enjoyable, it's an intensely difficult challenge that I've failed at so many times that I'm just tired and lonely at this point
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eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
I'm trying out here I wish there was a healthy way to explain that you really, really don't like a thing when said thing is constantly under attack so saying it makes you look like you're advocating for oppression. godddd
eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
ah. space heater in my room time of year
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eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
honestly I think bluesky wins out though because they let you limit who can reply even after you post it
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