eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
listened to bjork's "post" in pretty much full for the first time earlier except I was being a lazy dork so I experienced it through the official youtube playlist. fear was struck into my heart as a low-quality John Kricfalusi animated music video started playing towards the end
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eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
@snapsjaw ah yeah that sounds like an interesting game to learn. I hope you're making some progress
eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
alright enough depression posting what's poppin gamers
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eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
@bigtuffal ahh I think I might be too young and Not A Streamer to be there. thanks for the offer but I think it would be hard to fit in
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eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
@bigtuffal possibly! I'm just trying to Exist Somewhere at the moment because hitting the social eject button is kind of coming back to bite me, I'm all the way back at square one
eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
man I am incredibly thankful that I have a personal laptop now because I have had ZERO energy to get on my desktop lately but I still want to do Computer Activities
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eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
it's not my best foot forward but if you can handle that then you can probably handle everything else on this account 👍
eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
hi new and potential followers that suddenly showed up I may or may not have been suffering from multiple mental health crises recently. it's all rent lowering gunshots around here right now
eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
this "being detached" thing is making me all cerebral and depressed actually I need to be in some sort of community. but not where I was before because I don't want all that anxiety again
eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
ok I'm still not feeling well I need to just Not make any decisions about myself for a while
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eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
@ogre_magi if I don't have anything nice to say then I'm not saying it at all. which amounts to nothing at this point but whatever I need to stop being all anxious and frustrated
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eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
@ogre_magi lol say that to the like fifteen people that have stopped talking to and/or blocked me at this point because I kept incessantly venting at them about problems that I should have been coping with myself instead it's kind of obvious that I just need to shut up at this point
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eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
I'm gonna become some sort of zen buddha monk or whatever and then I'll finally stop making everyone around me mad. I mean to be fair I have no reason to talk to anyone at this point so whatever
eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
ok the emptiness is getting boring but I must persist. I am Not Allowed To Complain Ever
eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
this track still goes insanely hard https://youtu.be/fPR0cqgJV_o
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eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
you're probably going to see me get really quiet and this is why I just have Nothing To Talk About
eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
trying to not just wallow in my self defeat and complain about everything like I've been doing but now I just have nothing going on. like Wow this is boring and isolating
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eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
if I have to think about "front matter" again I will collapse instantly
eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
spinning some wheels around in my head about redoing my site with a focus on not somehow putting together a static site generator setup that's too complex for the five remaining brain cells in my head to maintain so it immediately falls into neglect
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eblu @eblu@wetdry.world
@raym I really like this thought actually
Or: recounting the tiring saga of getting my car's battery replaced.