I'm just going to kind of keep my head down and keep my distance from people unless they reach out. I don't really want to get up in people's faces if they feel that I've disrespected them and don't really consider us to be on good terms
it turns out that feeling like everything that's wrong in your life is your fault makes you snap eventually. but I'm also scared that I've been treating everyone wrong
ok I don't want to say much right now because I need to think about things but yeah that mental breakdown was inevitable with the way that things have been for me
I'm going to be honest I'm pretty sure all of my relationships are just me using people for a personal goal. I don't respect people. I think I need to just delete my account or something at this point
honestly if you see me glazing activitypub or any social protocol again then you gotta just shush me and tuck me into bed and surround me with comforting things because I'm clearly not okay and need a break from life for a bit
I'm probably mean about this but you would be too if you suddenly ran into something that made you a bit uncomfortable so many times that you feel like you have to go nuclear
also being someone who really isn't comfortable with all the candid sex/kink stuff and trying to maybe make inroads to the furry community is a bit of a nightmare scenario like why is everyone so thirsty. I just like the cute bugs man
I can't tell if it's the universal one but my sex repulsed ace experience is getting pushed to the point where you're paranoid of everyone online because you only get so much acceptance, there's no way to effectively enforce your specific boundaries on social media, and you have no idea if someone will just suddenly turn around and post something that makes you want to close the app immediately on your timeline